Do you have any idea how hard it is to cut yourself some slack? The most amazing thing happened to me on Sunday. It was one of those light bulb moments. I realized I’d managed to cut off the inner worrier. Somehow, Mother’s Day was allowing me to stop those nagging thoughts, the extra worry, and the mental clutter.
I used to think a special day had to be filled with perfect special moments. I think it came from growing up with a summer birthday – the whole day was mine, no outside commitments, no school, no obligations of any kind. The first summer that I had to work on my birthday was all kinds of wrong.
But I realized today that the unusual thing about a special day like Mother’s Day is that I let go of all my worries. I let go of trying to please someone else all day, and especially, second-guessing others’ expectations. I turned that extra voice off. And no one else feels hurt or neglected. Everything ran just as it normally would, and to top it all off, I was happier. So apparently, all the things that go on in my head are just my things – no one else knows the difference? That’s about as shocking as it gets.
Now I just have to figure out how to make that behavior so everyday and average that I can stop worrying about it.
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